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I plan to update this journal more than... incredibly infrequently. As a testament to my intentions I am posting this. In short: Things are good, lots of things are interesting, and lots of things are keeping me busy. More to come later. |
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[Jun. 13th, 2009|03:30 am] |
It is very summer-y out these days and I appreciate the weather. I'm currently taking BIOLOGY 173 at U of M, an intro biology lab class. It isn't terribly difficult and I haven't really learned much that I didn't know beforehand so I'm not particularly thrilled to have to take it. I have only three more meetings of the class, though. I've been playing disk golf on a roughly weekly basis with friends. It's quite fun and today I shattered my previous best so that was pleasant. I still managed to almost get last... but I was closer to the leader. I've been exercising a fair bit. I could do with a bit more, but at least I'm not being totally sedentary. The parents and I have gone up to midland a few times and done projects, played cards, and otherwise spent some time together, so that's nice. The weather hasn't been conducive to boating yet while we've been there but hopes are high for next time. I've been doing a bit of reading this summer as well, which is a welcome change from a relative lack of (pleasure) reading during the school year. Reviews of things I've read can be found on visual bookshelf in facebook.
I'm happy. Things are good.
I'm shocked I don't have anything to really write besides this... I think mainly I don't know why exactly everything seems good so I can't put it into words. Maybe another day. For now this is all. |
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| My goodness how the time has flewn... |
[Apr. 17th, 2009|01:55 am] |
It is overwhelmingly clear that my freshman year of college is coming to a close. This is, quite frankly, ridiculous, for multiple reasons. The most pressing is the fact that teaching establishments have decided that compressing examinations of my learning for the semester into a minimum amount of time is the best way to do so. I appreciate the necessity (or near-necessity) of this system, but that does not make it more reasonable. Next week will be like this: Monday: Bio test (not a final, per se, but a test) Tuesday: Final lab report, Final lab test, HTML project due (all for chemistry) Wednesday: Constant studying Thursday: Statistics final (worth either 80% or 0% of my grade, depending on if I do better on this or on the previous tests averaged (they choose the better of the two) Friday: Chemistry class test. The HTML project is a writeup of a particular reaction from a journal communication. Tonight I spent many an hour learning how best to create an animated mechanism of our reaction. I hope the inequality of the workload is taken into account in considering my animation as opposed to another group which has a 1-step reaction. Ours covers 2 pages. Theirs does not. I spent 5+ hours on it tonight. (which is frankly pretty crazy considering how little I got done). But I now know what I'm doing more clearly than before and the rate of productivity will increase dramatically tomorrow. I then have a lab report which i assume will take a sickeningly long time, despite my having done a preliminary write-up. The short story is I feel guilty every second I'm not actively studying something or working on one of my projects. The good news is my spanish test was moved from this monday to the next! I'm not too concerned for that, though this means I actually get to study for it, instead of barely studying for it and hoping for the best, which is what I probably would have done if it had been the same day as Bio and preceeding my chem tests.
The vaguer, and more interesting reasons that my freshman year ending is ridiculous is that this means that I have spent an entire school year here at college, and that I am actually a college student. Once more, as with every landmark in life, there has been no epiphany, no drastic change that all of a sudden signals "You are a college student now" "you are an adult" "you can drive"(ok that one was somewhat discrete in the change) "you are mature, now." In place of the epiphany has been gradual change. At the beginning of the school year I learned how easy highschool had actually been and how refreshing it is to have an unprecedented amount of freedom. Now I have been shown a new degree to which college can be difficult, and how much I can want to go/visit home. ... I don't know how to continue this paragraph, exactly, so I'll start a new one.
I just need to be home. You forget, living in the residence halls, what silence is like, because it is never silent. You don't realize untill you're writing a lab report for the 10th hour that your back is not particularly thrilled by the beds. You can never be alone. My bike seat has been tipped slightly forward for so long, and I always fail to change it. Sigh. I'm just getting sick of too many things, and stressed by... stuff. Class scheduling, homework, studying.
I look forward to sitting on the deck under the kiwi vine and reading whatever I want for hours and hours, watching the finale of Battlestar Galactica, visiting NFHS, consistent nice weather that I have the freedom to enjoy.
This spring term I'm taking bio 173, the introductory biology laboratory, which is prerequisite to the biochem I'm taking in the fall, and also to the physiology lab I am on a waitlist for for the fall. I will be in: MCDB 310 (Biochemistry), Biology 225(animal physiology), PSYCH 230(biopsychology), UROP, and ASIAN 260 (introduction to chinese civilization). If I get a spot in bio 226 I will drop the asian 260 and take it or another race and ethnicity some other time. That would mean a 12 credit semester, not counting UROP. That sounds nice.
I realized wednesday night that I missed an advising appointment I had earlier that day. I realized tonight I missed something else. Awesome.
Summary: I'm busy. I'd like to go home. I look forward to the relative freedom of summer. |
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| Noble aspirations |
[Apr. 12th, 2009|02:33 am] |
Does HTML code work in here when it's set on HTML mode? It's that time of the semester again! Schedule planning! As always I took this as a time to look ahead and behind me and see what I'm interested in and if I like the direction my classes and other choices are taking me. In short, the answer is yes, I like my classes, my plan, and my life currently.
The most drastic choice I considered was attempting to change to biomedical engineering. While I find it interesting I decided that the variety I can take in LSA and the classes more directly related to biology and psychology made it the better choice. Presently I'm planning to major in neuroscience and possibly minor in applied statistics. This summer I'm planning to relax/not take classes in the spring, go to wyoming for an ecology class in the later part of the summer. For the fall the schedule I'm currently thinking of is biopsych, biochem, urop, physiology, and intro to chinese civilization (Race and ethnicity credit) for a total of 16-18 credits (for Urop being 2-4 credits.) So that's good.
Currently I'm gearing up for finals and the end of the school year. Tomorrow I have a spanish paper due, and beginning a week from tomorrow I have 5 finals, a lab report, and a project due that week. This is daunting to say the least. The breakdown is Lab report, bio test, spanish test monday. Lab test, orgo project, stats homework(not a big deal, but annoying..) due tuesday, nothing wednesday, stats test thursday, and orgo normal class test friday. I'm pretty scared.
I'm going to write this spanish paper now so I'm free to work on my orgo project later tonight. Unfortunately I don't trust my groupmates for the orgo project all that much. Maybe now that it's the final thing they'll bring out some more work ethic, but we'll see.
I've started reading a book called "More than human: embracing the promise of biological enhancement" and it's really really interesting and crazy. He's mentioned gene manipulations that have made animals that learn up to 5X as fast as normal animals, made them super strong, made them change colors, made them live longer, healthier. He's currently discussing calorie restriction and how when combined with the gene therapies mice have been seen to live up to 75% longer than normal. It's really remarkable. He also addresses the ideas of why we would want to do these things and in the case of the life-lengthening treatments it also keeps the animals healthy and youthful right up until they die, which in humans, would translate into far less paying for ill elderly people. Using examples like penicillin he also argues that there would not be a stratification of rich and poor where the rich live forever and the poor have to sit by and watch because at least over time the treatments will reduce in cost due to the competition to market to a broader and broader audience. Anyway, I'm eagerly awaiting the day that someone finds a treatment that makes me super smart, super strong, super healthy, and super long-lived without horrendous side effects. I am consistently amazed by the things he describes.
Yeah. So now I'm going to write about a poem about a grown up guy telling kids to live it up, but don't expect life to be all a big party. Not nearly as awesome as genetically modifying animals. |
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| Rough |
[Mar. 19th, 2009|12:42 am] |
The upcoming weeks are busy, if not in reality, then in perceived busy-ness. In the next 16 days I will have 2 tests, a lab report, 2 hearty chemistry assignments, 2 stats homework assignments 2 or 3 bio problem sets, a spanish presentation, a spanish paper? nobody's sure when that is happening, UROP app to do (again, because the stupid site timed me out and then deleted my stuff), concentration advising appointment (with associated planning beforehand I'd like to do), and I'd like to read a chapter or so of Bio and a couple in chemistry.
Earlier this week I was surprisingly calm, seeing as I had a chem test I didn't feel particularly well studied for on tuesday and a spanish test that was hard to predict how it was going to be on wednesday, but I had a bout of feeling disheartened tonight, buut I am again back to feeling pretty good about it all.
I should sleep more. Harrison is a horrible influence in that regard. He regularly gets 6-7 hours of sleep, I'm amazed he can function all that well. I'm also shocked at how well I did with not enough sleep at points in highschool (remember waking up at 6 or 6 30 to be at school at 7 30? yeah. insane.).
I just read "Society without god: what the most religious nations can teach us about contentment." A complete review can be found on the visual bookshelf in facebook but a brief summary is that it very thoroughly demonstrates that the irreligious people the author interviews in Scandinavia are the norm there, and they are not inherently immoral or bad people. I just started "Animal cognition: the mental lives of animals" which thus-far is awesome. It is very interesting. I just read a chapter about the capacities of the pigeon which include: being able to see 340 degrees around then, keep both the ground near them and the horizon in focus at the same time (I don't know how.. but wouldn't that mean their lenses do not have a constant radius?), they can see ultraviolet light, and see polarization in light. They may have a magnetic sense, and rather definitely use their sense of smell to find their way home from 400-1200 miles away, even when they've been blindfolded and rotated throughout the trip. It's also described various hypotheses and experiments about cognition in apes and things, basically coming up with a big "who knows" as an answer. Anyway. It's interesting stuff. More will follow as I read more.
In bio we've been learning about vision and hearing and more than anything I'm overcome with a sense of "HOLY CRAP this is complicated." There are so many modulations in response to sustained stimuli that work through different mechanisms and differently in different cell types. So it's interesting, but it's tricky.
I still feel slightly socially isolated though slightly less-so, though the emphasis there is on the "slightly." I find it interesting how friendly people are at college just because they were randomly placed in the same room as someone or in the same hall. That means that most people, if you were to get to know them, you'd be friends with them, if my hall is average that is.
I've been less diligent about putting in the hours of reading and such (or at least the attention span?) lately and I think I can and should change that by remembering why I want to do so. I shouldn't be sick of chemistry, but glad that when I do it I get better at it. For example today I was finding related chemistry journal articles for my chemistry assignment and found a paper that directly described the axial selection seen in elimination reactions (generally), which is really cool. It's nice to see the accepted source of a fundamental concept we've learned in class. So with that sense of interest I think I can feel a little more motivated. That and whether I like it or not I have a lot to do, and I may as well enjoy it as much as I can.
I'm going to call it a night now. good night. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2009|03:33 am] |
I biked from ann arbor to my house yesterday, a total distance of ~30 miles. The route was not too bad to follow. The hardest part was when I got into farmington hills/Novi the roads started sucking horribly, sidewalks were reappearing, but erratically, and drivers were becoming more ruthless and frightening. I was quite tired by the end of it but consciously I was only noticing my arms and back getting sore (I had a light backpack on). My legs I only noticed were tired when I tried to go faster or if I stopped for a bit and started again, also my cruising gear slowly shifted down and down. So that was quite an escapade. To anyone reading this: please be nice to bikers on the road. Hang back a few seconds so you can get a good gap to pass with. It is terrifying to be the cyclist being passed about 1 foot away. Also, realize that the road may seem smooth to a car but is completely impassable to a bike, and a similar reason applies why they might not be off to the right in the pile of gravel that is inevitably there. Yeah...
Also of note I have decided, to a degree, what I'm going to do this summer. I plan to take biochem and possibly something else (physics? distribution requirement(probably a better choice now that I've been thinking about it) during the spring semester, and then go to Jackson Hole, Wyoming to the UM field station and take a class on ecosystems. Most of the classes offered there (of very few..) are geology courses and all the courses sound like you romp around in the mountains for class field trips, and if you feel like it yourself. Basically it sounds pretty awesome. Biochem, on the other hand, sounds very hard (well I guess that's not opposite to awesome.. but it's different).
I have lots of work ahead of me in the coming days and weeks, but oddly do not feel like I do... Tomorrow, I hope, will be filled with an immense amount of chemistry coursepacking, chemistry homework, studying spanish terms (primarily), and the like. |
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[Mar. 12th, 2009|12:36 am] |
So I had my bike held by the lock with its rear wheel off the ground and I was trying to make my gears happy again and Jordan Banks, a guy I know who worked in a bike shop senior year came by and was like "hey what are you up to?" and he then promptly, expertly, and almost magically, made my shifting work like a sweet sweet dream. It was fantastic. So that was pretty awesome.
My group got our website roughly planned out, and my new spanish group decided on a story and date to lead the class discussion (our group has 5 people in it so it will either be very easy or very horrible or both).
I've started reading "Society without God" and it's faintly interesting. So far the author has basically said "Look, denmark and sweden are perfectly fine places despite practically nobody believing in god." many times. I may abandon it in search of something else. |
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| Status report |
[Mar. 10th, 2009|11:15 pm] |
Things are ok.
Homework situation is not out of hand. I'm up to date on reading for things, though I think I could do to read some stuff for Spanish and maybe re-read a bit of stats. Bio is tricky, but not absurd. It's very interesting. We're learning about vision and it is remarkable how complex and specific things are to handle adjusting to different light environments, detecting color, shape, movement... Chemistry is going well. Lab the last couple times has not been too bad. I just began a synthesis of benzyl acetate, which is a component of the smell of jasmine.
I attempted to send my online application for UROP for next year, but I'm unclear as it whether or not it actually took it because it asked me to enter my username and password when i hit submit and then it didn't tell me anything else. I'll ask them tomorrow at the UROP office if they can see...
Exercising is going well so far this year. I don't have a normal schedule as of yet, but I manage to get to the IM building on a fairly regular basis. I brought my bike back to school after spring break and it was being funky so I got a tune up and then the day after i picked it up someone kicked and bent my back wheel which I had to get replaced. grr. Also since then my rear gears haven't been quite right. I tried screwing with the set screws today but it's still not right yet. I'll try to get that working again on a day when it's not cold and wet, like it was today...
For spring break my parents and I went to Mexico City and went to lots of museums, wandered the streets, went to Teotihuacan and such. It was a very cool trip. As always it's somewhat shocking to be somewhere surrounded by another language. Luckily in Mexico City I knew the language and so I was able to communicate with street vendors, ticket vendors, waiters, things like that. I can now say I know I could make my way if I was stranded in Mexico City. My spanish was good enough to communicate, but not fluently.
Now I'm going about my business here at college. Alright, I'm going to head to sleep. Adios. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2009|06:03 pm] |
I just got back from chem lab. It was... trying. We were supposed to prepare and run a column chromatography of two compounds we'd gotten ready the week before. The set-up sounds fairly straight forward: put glass wool in the column, put sand on it, put silica on that, put sand on that. but the glass wool step is tricky. It has to be wadded up just so, and jammed just so, and yeah. When you don't do it right you have to clear the whole thing out and start over. I only put stuff in and screwed up once, then i took about forever to get the glass wool in the proper position for a second attempt. We were using gas attached to an adapter on the top of our columns to increase pressure and make solvent run through the silica faster. I managed to pop my adapter out like a rocket, breaking it. Shortly thereafter I popped a stopper out of my new adapter, breaking that too. Sweet. Meanwhile I tried to run TLC plates to show how my compounds would move through the column together. 2 i let run over because i was busy fixing column things. the one that "worked" didn't look good/nearly how it should have. It was disheartening. Also, the column I got had a bad stopcock so I had to go get parts for it. Sweet. Then cleaning up is simply madness. 20 kids trying to use 1 dry waste bucket and a series of wet waste jugs all in a small area. And silica, when wet, is a slimy paste that doesn't dissolve, and is therefore obnoxious to get off of stuff. My beakers are mainly not clean because we were so over time at that point anyway. On the plus side I did run IR spectra of my starting compounds... and learned many things about how to make a column properly, etc etc etc.
It was stressful, it would have made me late for something else if i'd been able to find the something else I was planning to go to, which I didn't. I realized I didn't have a room number of this meeting for a... thing in which ppl involved will go to a highschool once a week for a few weeks sometime soon and do... something chemistry related? I'm somewhat unclear on it. Luckily there is an alternative meeting on thursday. But going to that means I'll have to bug out early(maybe?probably?) of a lunch with honors thing with Timothy Ferris, which sounded interesting.
Anyway. I'm recovering from that assault to my stress and emotions. I'm going to go have a lovely dinner and head off to office hours and learn how to do my chemistry project.
Seriously. Lab today was not cool and could have been avoided if only they had trusted us less(aka demonstrated what to do in reality(accurately) rather than in words(vaguely). |
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| Winter 2009 has begun |
[Jan. 25th, 2009|08:58 pm] |
Oh dear, it's been a while since I've posted on here. All my end-of-semester things got wrapped up fine last semester. I got good grades and had a lovely winter break.
For winter break I read a lot and went to New Jersey to visit with family. It was a good break and very pleasant. Nice to see everyone and such. Christmas was cool as well.
The winter semester has started and I'm enjoying it so far. I'm taking: Bio 222-Neurobiology Spanish 320-Assorted literature Chem 215/216- Organic chemistry 2 (honors) Stats 350- Introductory statistics
I like my professors excluding perhaps my stats professor, but I don't know if it's her that makes the lecture boring of just the subject matter.
Bio is very interesting. We're learning all about the basics of neural signaling so far: ion channels, action potentials, and stuff. Spanish is ok. We're reading and discussing literature so it's fun so far as that's concerned but there's not that great feeling of accomplishment that comes with knowing how to do more chemistry or something. I do feel much more proficient in spanish than I did... at some time in the past? I don't know why I suddenly feel so kickass about spanish. Maybe it's my discovery that I can sit down and read a book/story/what have you without a dictionary handy and at least get it, even if I had to context clues over gaps or explicitly think of the order of objects or other madness. So that's cool. I continue to feel left out whever I hear another language and I can't understand it and I know I could if I took the time to do so. Chem 215/216- So, chem is pretty cool. Our lecture only has ~100 kids in it *only* which is very nice. I know a lot of people in there (by that I mean I don't feel like a total wacko saying "hey what did she just say" to the person etc.) which is nice. by the end of this week we (in small groups) are supposed to have proposed a 3-step synthesis of some interesting compound with journal articles documenting the effectiveness and reasonability of each step in our synthesis. I'm hoping I can get some answers about how to do this during office hours tomorrow. So far what we've been told is something along the lines of "use sci-finder" which is not particularly helpful. I'm excited to do this in theory, but I'm sure the slogging through journals will be less exciting. Stats is neat, but boring. Put to use in interesting ways I always say "whoa that's sweet" but when you're just describing formulas and the stipulations on them with a tedium of example(in lecture there are plenty of examples, which is good, but they go really slowly, whcih is bad) it becomes a powerful sleep-aid. I really want to like it.
I am now 19. I feel good about things in general, but birthday festivities/reflection followed by the impending press of School (after the weekend) (and more reflection) has reminded me of the complexities of the life of a college student. I'm thinking about What I should be doing this summer. I think finding an internship/summer research somethingy something would be good. I'd like a snapshot of the future (if those things would provide one of those..), of if I like doing research/etc/etc/etc, and looking at my brother's awesome track record of intership experiences and hearing how awesome they were on multiple levels makes me think it'd be a really good idea.
Sigh, just feeling thoughtful about a lot of things too mixed up to write down.
Went and biked today after a few days off: 1hr ~50 minutes. Read my spanish for tomorrow (an interesting short story), Started reading Natural acts, and I finished Nerds last week sometime. it's very pleasant to feel like I can possibly read things for fun. Ok. I'm going to go do a bit of work. adios. |
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| Procrastination |
[Nov. 16th, 2008|05:27 pm] |
Great books paper due wednesday. 5-6 pages. It will concern Aeschylus's Oresteia, Sophocles's Antigone, and Herodotus's The Histories. Topics can be something about Justice, Oracles, or Government. I'm leaning toward justice.
I've procrastinated quite thoroughly this weekend playing halo and resident evil, primarily. I should really begin more seriously writing my paper.
The reason I've decided I put off papers so much is because, at least for this sort of paper, I don't like it too much. I have about 1000 pages from which I could find applicable quotes to describe something rather indistinct in these ancient greek works. While this is good, because there are probably good quotes in there somewhere, it's also annoying because if I don't find the best examples from those 1000 pages my paper could have potentially been better. Bleh. Also I don't think it's particularly important to compare justice, oracles or government in the three works. I do think its interesting and somewhat cool to see parallels and differences within them and between them and our present conceptions, but it's just a bit tedious to now, after I've read them, be given a topic to write about for them, have to go back into them and hunt using my imperfect memory of them for quotes and evidence to support my conceptions of, for example, justice, in the works. Discussion for great books is awesome, however. We talk about similar things as the paper would we just do so in real time so there's less of me sitting there re-reading passages and more of each person chiming in when they remember a particular example, a much more efficient way to do things. So it's not that I don't like papers or analysis it's that I don't like doing papers or analysis on something that I don't have a terrific grasp of. I've read not even all of herodotus(we were only supposed to read some select books) and even that at times I didn't really know what was up... Oh well. I do a pretty good job. I just need to put some work into this.
It's just amazing how much more fun I think it is to study for orgo than to write a paper like this. Orgo leads to me knowing something new that is universal. This leads to me having a good grasp of subjective interpretations of authors from 2400 years ago. Hm.
Things are going well aside from my habit of procrastination. I need to have a game-plan for classes next semester (and beyond) by december 4th I think. That's when i can register for classes. Soo I should decide what things I would like to take classes pertaining to. It's a strange thing to decide because there's no right answer. There's no certain path of classes that will be "best" I can diversify what I'm taking, I can focus what I'm taking very specifically, I can determine what things I can double major in, or get minors in, and what those sorts of choices would mean for my other majors or other minors, and most importantly what all those titles, the majors and minors and classes would mean for me as a person, and for my future. The conflict I perceive (not sure how real it is) is that if I do something like take the bare minimum of concentration classes for a major and my other classes get me minors or just get me fun knowledge about lots of things (languages, chemistry, programming, whatever the heck else (underwater basketweaving)) I won't be as desirable in things related to my major (and therefore presumably long-term work/life) as if i directed my efforts onto things related to that. It's frightening, overwhelming, and probably only partially a valid concern. As always I defer this consideration and issue until the present issue is out of the way, that being my great books paper.
I continue to feel slightly socially isolated. Definitely a major reason for it is my own lack of social initiative. Harrison only compounds my lack of social intitiative. I don't have much to say about this because I understand it so little myself, but I don't feel hopeless about it, just isolated for the time being.
This past week I've tried to start running at least for some of my exercise. This morn...afternoon I went and ran in the arb. It was very nice despite the fact that it was lightly snowing, the trails were a bit squishy in places, and I'm somewhat out of running shape. Awesome to take some time off of games, work, etc and just wander and enjoy the woods.
It's 6 pm, and fully dark. Just makes it feel later. I was thinking about going running again, but then... darkness.
Ok. I'm feeling pretty good, but it's hard to figure where to begin this paper fiasco. I'll go find out! bye. |
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| The writing mood |
[Nov. 9th, 2008|11:10 pm] |
I doubt this is unique to me, but when I have to/want to write something it usually proceeds in a certain pattern. First, I put it off, I put it off, I put it off some more, then, I start writing, get aggravated that I can't write a coherent introduction, stop writing, then begin writing again, write a fantastic introduction which moves me smoothly into seemingly miraculous writing.
I'm writing this LJ entry to preface my finishing up of a spanish paper due tomorrow. As such, I think I'll give you all a run-down of what the story is about, and how I'm going to analyze it in the paper (seems like this might help me when I go over there and write for real).
The story is called "Un día de éstos." "One of these days." It opens with a dentist early in the morning polishing some false teeth in his small office. His son comes in and tells him that the mayor is there and wants the dentist to remove his tooth which has been bothering him. The dentist says he's not there, the mayor says he can hear the dentist, and he'll shoot him if he won't take his tooth out. The dentist calmly shows his son a revolver and says "tell him to come shoot me." The mayor comes in, and he and the dentist act peaceably. He sits down in the chair but is scared when the dentist gets closer. The dentist informs the mayor that his procedure will have to be done without anesthetic, which the mayor accepts with concern, but acceptance. The dentist torques the mayor's truth and whispers to him "here you pay us twenty deaths, sir." He then shatters the tooth and removes it. The mayor is crying from the pain so the dentist gives him a rag to dry his tears and tells him to rest and wash the opening with salt water. The mayor is about to leave but he says "you forgot to give me the bill" the dentist replies to the effect of "should i send the bill to you, or to the town" The mayor then leaves, looking guilty, and says "it's the same either way."
SOO. Analysis time. I warn you some of this may seem excessive, it's because it's meant for the paper later on. This is a story that has many levels. There is the superficial story of the man who dreads the dentist, and the dentist who does not savor his work. To accept this as the only story, however, requires one to disregard the violent tension and mysterious comments made by both characters. This tension and these comments create the second story where the author has created an inversion of power as the villianous mayor must put himself in the power of the dentist who exacts the revenge of a public that has been wronged. This second story is more interesting. It is developed by the author when the two characters almost have a shoot-out, with the apprehension and apparent vulnerability of the mayor in the dentist's office, and the final scene where the dentist uses his power to torture the mayor and then forces him to admit that he's abusing his power.
Ok, I'm feeling pretty good about this. Gr. I took a nap earlier so that will help with the alertness but I should probably have had this done/more done by now. sigh. oh dear. Overheard everywhere just wasted more time. Bah. Now work for real! |
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| Things are good |
[Nov. 2nd, 2008|02:46 am] |
So, I'm a member of SSSCR student society for stem cell research. With the election coming up on which proposal two will allow the creation of new embryonic stem cell lines stuff has been going on to support that. Today was Bowling for Breakthroughs, a fundraiser event which was very fun. Bowled 3 games, won a free ticket to the michigan theater, other folks won other cool things. Tomorrow night we're chalking the diag which should be fun. Also I went out with some folks to the partying occuring on elm street which was a good experience to have had. Saw some folks which was cool, but it was not great fun. Today I thoroughly realized that I have lots of stuff to do. Things on the docket are as follows: Presentation for spanish on wednesday(analyze, lead class discussion/explanation of story) Presentation on cancer diagnosis method on wednesday(research and explain, basically) Paper for spanish due friday (3-5 pages about a story we've read) Read 65 pages of Thucydides by thursday, with more to follow
It's really easy to write down simply, but it all entails a lot of time. Ho hum. Things are pretty good. Just busy. Learned of the site www.pandora.com which is very cool. Finds music similar to other music which is fantasticly useful for finding things that are good that would be otherwise impossible to find.
K. Time to get to bed. |
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| Quotes |
[Oct. 30th, 2008|01:21 am] |
So I often describe my day, with a hint of despair, as nothing but sleeping, eating (sometimes skipping some eating), doing school-related work, and the internet (often tied to school).
Beneath this despair and exasperation with the sheer devotion I must have to School I love it at the same time. Finally I feel like someone has figured out the limit of tolerance and ability. I don't waste my time because if I did so things I find important would suffer. I also must be incredibly efficient in planning so I can get my things done, not go insane, not starve to death, get enough sleep, things like that.
I try to encapsulate my thoughts in a succinct quote quote often, but generally fail because there's a great deal of thoughts to be captured by a single quote. I just stumbled upon this quote collection http://www.goal-setting-college.com/inspiration/inspirational-quotes/ which is quite excellent.
I leave you with this, which I feel is particularly poignant as I often look down the road of Schooling, or rather up the mountain of Knowledge I've begun to climb and am daunted by its height. At the same time, however, I'm proud that I even plan to undertake the climb and glad that I'm in a position to do so.
“Live your life each day as you would climb a mountain. An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind, but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each new vintage point.” - Harold B Melchart
I really like quotes. That link leads to a lot of great ones for how I'm feeling lately. |
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[Oct. 18th, 2008|02:31 am] |
My posts here have been few and far between. This the second since I moved in to South Quad on August 27, 2008. The amount of time that has passed is sickening. I honestly can't fathom how so much time has gone by. I think my general state of being very busy is much to blame.
I still like college. My classes often require me to do a lot of work, but that means I'm being challenged. I've written my first long essay for great books now. it was a 5-6 page paper that ended up a bit over 7 pages long. We'll see how that goes... I also recently took my Great Books midterm. I feel that I did well, and definitely didn't do horrendously...
My first Orgo exam I got a 92% on. Class average was a 76 or so. It is reassuring to be confirmed in thinking one's doing alright.
Psych remains easy; I got more than 100% on my first exam.
Spanish is relatively easy, but not a complete blow off.
My honors 135 for cancer is actually becoming a real course, briefly. We need to prepare presentations about a method of cancer treatment. After those presentations are done the class finishes. before the semester ends. cool.
In further academic news I found out I can get retro credit for continuing in foreign language--5 credits added on to the 3 ap credits i had coming in. I had a meeting with an advisor today to discuss classes and things. I explained that I seem to be primarily interested in brains and brains with computers and she gave me lots of good ideas and advice. I was steered toward classes in the kineisiology department (movement science classes focusing on what chemically and biologically is allowing movement, etc etc), and also to the biomedical engineering deparment. Apparently what I (for now) foresee myself doing is both neuroscience and biomedical engineering and therefore I want to find out more about an option of concentrating in both an engineering and LSA concentration with neuroscience and biomedical engineering. To try to find out more what I should be doing to do what interests me now (I keep adding this caveat, beacuse I feel like being too confident at this point is wrong) I'm trying to meet with a couple people who are doing research that is in line with what I think is awesome, and potentially a neuroscience advisor and a biomedical engineering advisor, all to find out how feasible it is to double major in that way, how appropriate it is for what I really am intersted in(seems like incredibly correlates with what I like) and also to see how studying abroad could fit into this menagerie of a life I'm setting out for myself. Oh, and also student organizations, research, internship opportunities focusing on this area as well. I also plan to go say hey to the study abroad people (Office of International Programs OIP) and have them point and sort my options far better than I can get from the typed up descriptions online and such, also explaining more specifically what classes are offered in the study abroads and such.
This long-term planning, while its necessity is frightening, the hope in it is uplifting. I am so excited even to sit down and say LOOK AT WHAT I'm GOING TO DO! Because it all seems so cool. Yeah.
In a not-academic direction there is not much in my life. There is a lot of Halo, and a lot of eating, and some exercise. there is a lot of reading blogs and other things online. There is researching the above mentioned things, lately. My social interactions are few. I make little effort to go specifically try to eat, hang out with people, and therefore I rarely eat, hang out with people other than Harrison, and that just because we live in the same room. Sometimes I'll see people I know at a meal or on the way to a meal and we'll eat together, but I usually feel like I'm on the outside because 1. I definitely am or 2. I just rarely hang out with them. Even some people i felt I was rather good friends with from the first week or so I feel like I'm being peripheralized in preference of other people, notably, people in the room next to mine and across the hall. Sigh. Lately I've been fine with this state of affairs, and I think it's at least partially my own not wanting to be imposing on others limiting how much i butt myself into other people's social/eating lives. And lots of times i'd rather not eat with people, or have to put up with hearing about stuff I don't really care about, when I could just eat and get on my way back to doing work that I need to do. I'm not easily excited, but I'm rather critical and realistic, and it seems that conversations like "how do you like orgo? Oh, I like it pretty well, it's really pretty interesting" are not what people want to hear. for some reason they'd rather commiserate "oh my god it's so hard. YEAH I KNOW TOTALLY." Eh, that really doesn't come up too much. I don't know. Some aspect of something about me, or others, or more importantly how I and others interact, does not lead to strong, plentiful social relations.
Ok, so a short synopsis is this: I'm very excited about my academic future. I'm presently concerned about my lack of social interactions, but I'm hopeful for the future.
Also, I've been getting lovely amounts of sleep--7-8 hours usually. It's nice. K. That's all for now. Maybe more soon. |
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[Sep. 5th, 2008|12:50 am] |
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| | Fans | ] | WOW. A lot has happened since my last post. I got glasses. They work wonderfully, but I avoid using them unless I need to. I don't want to grow more dependent on them, they make my eyes feel tired, or lazy, i can't tell which, and yeah that's about it. After that I was still at home for a bit. I've now moved into my dorm for college. I begin the next chapter of my life here at the University of Michigan. It is disconcerting, exciting, terrifying, amazing, and any number of other adjectives to be going to College. With a capital C. Moving in was a whirlwind. We brought up our stuff, stuffed our room full of it, arranged and organized and shifted it. The whole time I was partially in awe of the fact that I was really going to be living not at my house for a while. That night Harrison and I walked around the floor and met lots of people. we ended up talking with an RA on the other side of the building from us along with a couple of her residents. That was very very fun, and I'm so glad we met that RA, Alyssa, and her friend, another RA, Alexandra. We actually talked with some people and learned some things, and became familiar, if not best-of-friends with those RAs, good people to know for many reasons. So that was day one. Day two consisted of.... touring around looking at buildings where classes are, riding my bike around, picking up football tickets, good stuff like that. We met up with a couple of Harrison's friends to hang out with. We went to freshman convocation, which is sort of a welcoming ceremony to the University that says "congratulations, you're all very good students for making it in here. you'll all do great, michigan is great." we went to artscapade and escapade which were interesting, and crowded. They basically had lots of advertising for clubs and things, giving away free stuff from businesses, etc. It was pretty fun. Ok. This is a continuation of a post I started a few days ago. Classes started on Tuesday here at the university of Michigan. I like my classes so far, and the vast majority of my professors and GSIs. My psych professor and gsi seem unimpressive so far. My classes are: Chem 210, 211 (Orgo 1, Orgo 1 lab), Great Books 191, Psych 111, Spanish 276, and a minicourse on cancer (only one credit, minimal homework. Just some reading) That’s a total of 17 credits. Great books and Spanish I expect to be primarily different levels of the same sort of thing, writing essays about stuff we read. In Spanish it sounds like we’ll be reading lots of short stories about which we’ll talk or write papers. Great books the professor is very knowledgeable, and it sounds like the papers could be lots of “fun” intellectual fun… that is to write. We’re currently reading the Iliad. I like it for what it is, I don’t claim that I looove it, but I have no major qualms with it, and overall like it. Spanish our class is small (23 kids), at least some of them I like, our professor is fluent in English and Spanish, I can understand him while he’s blathering on in Spanish, which is good. Orgo discussion today was daunting, but I think that is primarily due to the fact that I haven’t had chem. Since junior year… I studied some, read the book, did problems tonight, and I now feel vastly more confident and such. I feel like guilt, obsession, and confliction are strong players in emotion here at the university, at least in mine. I feel guilt for not going and reading one of my many books I could, I also feel guilt for not exercising(which I’ve actually done a fair bit of), I feel guilt for not hanging out with people, or for not making more of an effort to go eat with more people… etc. But that guilt about mutually exclusive (sorta, at the same time at least) things leads to the confliction. I still feel sorta weird walking down the hall and saying heeey I’m gonna come hang out in your room. Hrm. I am happy, though. On the whole I have met many people, re-met some people, my classes interest me, my room is awesome, my hall is in a good location, my schedule is nice, my bike is convenient. Life is good. Today was festifall, and I found at least one group that looks interesting. It’s called neurokids, about outreach to 4th-5th graders teaching about the brain. I figure I’ll like that, and also could point me toward other things I may like… yesterday I also went to the waterski club mass meeting, but I’m leaning away from doing it. It’s expensive, and time consuming. Maybe next year, but not this year… Um so yeah, I really like it here, my glasses are very useful in lecture. Mmk. I’m gonna get to sleep now. ‘night |
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[Aug. 12th, 2008|03:30 am] |
There is a pleasure in the pathless woods, There is a rapture on the lonely shore, There is society, where none intrudes, By the deep sea, and music in its roar: I love not man the less, but Nature more, From these our interviews, in which I steal From all I may be, or have been before, To mingle with the Universe, and feel What I can ne'er express, yet cannot all conceal.
-- Lord Byron
I really like this poem. I like both the style and strongly associate with the... message? of the poem. (there's probably some awesome word for "the stuff that the poem is saying the whole time through" that I don't know, if you do, substitute it in for message back there <--) |
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[Aug. 12th, 2008|03:16 am] |
July 31: Day 27: We drove to Jefferson City, Missouri and spent the night there. Always good to visit with the family.
August 1: Day 28: We drove home. Home sweet home. I've now been home a goodly time, I'm enjoying myself. I'm both getting things done and having fun. I got a vaccination(Tdap, tenatus, diptheria, and pertussis) it gave me a fever the following day and a half, and my arm was quite sore that day. I've recovered from that now. I got an eye exam, and plan to get a pair of glasses... I have trouble with seeing clearly at a distance. It really only becomes an issue at times with driving, and reading messy/faint writing on a chalkboard from a distance. -.75 left eye and -1.25 right eye prescription. Hm. It seems like the right decision, to have glasses for when I need them, and help make my life a little easier... grumble.. I just don't want to realize that I don't truly need them and find I wasted money.. I guess at SOME point in the future they'll be at least helpful, if not the correct prescription at THAt time. Yeah. ummm yeah
Harrison and I went to Ikea today, we got a couch and a table(for tv and stuff) for our dorm room.
Some days are very slow, I spend them primarily alone, reading hundreds of pages in my latest book, generally. Other days I hang out with people all day. I think it's a nice balance. I THOROUGHLY enjoy the peaches that are presently in season. man. so delicious. ummmmmmmmmm I need to order my books one of these days, like I keep saying I will.
Now that the olympics have started I'm watching them to what I'd come close to calling a "disgusting" amount. They are really quite entertaining. Diving, Swimming, Gymnastics, Beach Volleyball, a smattering of fencing, badminton, rowing have all been among the subjects of my viewing. I estimate I've watched more sports in the past, like, 2 days than i did all of last year. Fun fun.
Ok. i need to get to sleep now |
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[Jul. 31st, 2008|01:44 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | black, canyon, colorado, gunnison, koala, lost, montrose, national, national park, panda, park, san diego, steep, tunnel, zoo | ] |
Sunday July 27: Day 23: Sunday was the San Diego Zoo, widely heralded as the best zoo in the country. I must say I was not disappointed. It was a big place, and full of animals. (wow. shocking, huh). Some favorite animals: the amethystine python(at a shallow angle it looks like it has a purple shine to it), the pandas were very cool(They were sitting literally in heaps of bamboo just chowing down. They were eating, quickly and non-stop the entire time we saw them, except for the baby one who was sleeping in a hammock.) the koalas were interesting, some of them were crawling around and not just sleeping in fuzzy balls in their pseudo-trees. One nice thing they have is right at the entrance to the park there's a tram/tour thing you can take around and get an overview of the park and see lots of animals along the way as well. The paths through the park go through really amazing foresty ares that the park maintains to be like different areas they are representing. The paths are generally themed, like one that has a bunch of apes and some monkeys with assorted bird enclosures inbetween(a common theme in the park, have birds in small areas between other things). Overall I was very impressed with the park. They have sooo many animals. It is a bit frustrating because not all the animals are listed on their map... not nearly. only the popular ones, but as you see those you see things like tapirs, and capybaras and you say oh, where were those capybaras, and you can't find it since it's not on the map. I was very impressed. Information was plentiful about most animals, only time and patience really limits how much you can find out about things there, especially if you find an employee to ask stuff to. A sidenote I have on being in the park is that the ignorance you hear walking around is staggering, but it's also pleasant to see people who are learning stuff and teaching their kids. Two instances stand out in my mind: standing near the okapis a group of people came by and were saying oh what are those, and upon seeing the zebra-like stripes on their hind legs said "oh it's zebras" and walked away. Sigh. The other was I was waiting near a sort of island exhibit with some clear signs on it about what was in it. There was a European Glass Lizard clearly visible which I must have heard 10 people call "a snake" as they went by, which is a reasonable assumption, but it doesn't look quite right for a snake, and there are signs visible to see that is not actually a snake. Anyway. Zoo=great.
oh, and krista got well and truly lost for a few minutes near the birds of prey. that was bad.
Monday July 28: Day 24: We drove from San Diego to Las Vegas on monday, so that Warren, Sandy and the girls could catch a flight the following day. Once in Vegas we went down to Fremont street and saw some crazy light shows on the ceiling and such. it was an uneventful day.
Tuesday July 29: Day 25: We drove to Montrose, Colorado from Las Vegas on Tuesday. A long drive. Much reading was done. Little else.
Wednesday July 30: Day 26: Today we visited the Black Canyon of the Gunnison national park in Colorado. The Black canyon is famous for being an incredibly narrow canyon. At one point it is 40 feet wide at the bottom and 1750 feet deep(not to say it doens't get wider as it gets higher... but still). The views into the canyon(that's all you can do, look down, unless you're crazy and get some secret route to walk in the canyon for the parts that are not simply a river with cliffs going into it), are absurd. It is so steep. You can hear the river roaring all the time too, even 2000 feet up, since the river is so narrow and so steep. The river itself falls 98 feet per mile on average, which is really steep for a river. The whole thing is essentially rapids. The walls of the canyon are quite spectacular as well. They are schist and something else nitze(errrr soemthing like that, I'd look it up but the internet is being lousy right now), and in between there is pegmatite, a light colored metamorphic rock like granite. So the walls are mainly dark with these lines of pinkish pegmatite showing through. Neat stuff. Other fun facts about the black canyon: at the south-east end of the park there is a tunnel. The tunnel was carved through 5 miles of mountain to take water from the gunnison river and deliver it for agricultural needs in the nearby lands. It was done in 1900-1906. The story surrounding it is quite ridiculous, involving explorers going down the river on inflatable mattresses to survey the river and find a site for the tunnel to building a whole town to support the tunnel operation. It's quite interesting. After all that we drove to Colorado Springs, where I am now.
We near the end of our trip now. It is a straight shot home, more or less, from here. Tomorrow we are driving nearly 12 hours to my uncle's house in Jefferson City, Missouri, and the following day we are driving to home, Farmington Hills, Mi.
I'll be glad to be home, but this has been a real adventure, and great fun to see all these national parks and everything else. wow. crazy. |
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[Jul. 27th, 2008|02:36 am] |
Friday July 25: Day 21: On friday we woke up in LA and began our drive to San Diego. We stopped at Mission Basilica San Diego de Alcalá, the Mission whose location later led to the creation of san diego, or something along those lines. A little history about the missions: The spanish set up a series of missions along the coast of california when the Russians appeared to be threatening to take their land. the missions were spaced one days journey apart up the coast. Later that day we went to sea world. Some fun rides, lots of dolphins, orca whales, and good things like that were seen. Good stuff.
Saturday July 26: Day 22: Today we were in San Diego and we returned to SeaWorld. Our day was spent seeing whales, walruses, dolphins, fish, dogs, cats, etc. It was a good day. Not much to say about Sea World other than it was very popular(lots of people there), and that it was sea world. They had nice aquarium exhibits as well as some more open-air pools and things with fish, rays, eels, then the areas with dolphins, seals, whales, all that good stuff. tomorrow: The San Diego Zoo. My Hopes are High. Yaay teaching kids fun stuff about animals! |
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